I'm Bisexual, it was very hard for me to accept myself. When I first found out in September 2019, I thought it was pretty cool! At that time I didn't even think much about "LGBT", I also thought that whatever happens will be fine, people will accept what I am. Gradually it began to seem that it is not so simple! People don't understand this thing, people just pretend to be good and understand. But in reality they don't understand all this! I have a question for them. "Why is it so hard for people like us to understand and accept?". When I started recognizing myself, I was released that what I am is not a bad thing as much as people make it bad, it is natural. i belong to middle class family, It is very difficult to tell this thing in the family. I had also thought earlier that I would go to frankly and tell everything to the family, but this did not happen. In 2021 I thought first start with friends they will understand my feelings then I told my two males friend and that talk became a weird conversation and that talk turned into laughter. Then in May 2022 Nov thought that now I will slowly tell my siblings then I told my cousin sister then I came to know that my lil brother didn't like all this, To tell the truth, I was scared. Every person can feel what is rejection, but no one wants to be rejected by their own people. Then a few months passed, in June 2023, I again decided that I will not keep these feelings inside myself because these feelings were troubling me a lot. There are many things that we can't tell anyone, I too can't tell many things to anyone, I keep choking. By the way, let me first tell that my family and I do not get along. Eventually I decided that I would tell my family, before telling them, then I spoke to my second cousin sister first. I talked to her and she refused to tell them obviously she was 100% right, i obeyed her. It was not the right time to tell the family. A few weeks ago I told a close female friend of mine that there was no hope at this point, I was just scared of losing her. I didn't think they would understand me, I was very courageous to tell them but Thank God they understood and supported me. I was so happy that I cannot tell. Then I felt that now people will accept me, this fear is such that maybe you can guess how we see ourselves people don't accept us and I am going through this. I randomly told a male friend but I had a lot of expectations from him but his reaction "nothing" came and I broke down at this time. I realized again that I will not get what I am expecting from the universe, instead I will get hatred, disappointment!, unfortunate. I'm learning to face people, it's not that easy, but I'll do it, I know I've learned to survive, I'll survive, I'll survive alone.
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